6th week

fist off thank you all so much for caring about me i miss you guys. alot! i cry almost every night but i can handel it. wait hold up i can handel it. thanks mom and dad for being such good parents. i couldnt ask for better. thanks for rasing me right and always looking out for me. i love you guys with all my heart. i miss they way your always giving advice mom. and thanks dad for teaching me the importance of hard work. thanks for wanting to spend time with me. and thanks for allways picking up the phone when i call. i know i wasnt the perfect son but you know you love me any ways. thanks lauren and courtney for being such spectacular sisters. i love you bolth so much thanks for writing me i dont know what i would do with out you two. thanks zack for treating my sister with respect and love. i hope to be a great husband like you some day. your my insperation. im got trancfer calls last night im going to a town called More. its suppost to be the best place in the mission. i dont remeber my comps name but i heard he is to legit to quit. and that he is a great missionary. i was reading in Gordan B. Hinklys book "Standing for something" and i now know why i was with elder damon. when he lifed up that chair and he had that look in his eyes. i was scared to death i felt so alone and so scared. i couldn't even breath. and now i hate elder damon and i fear him. evern though its been a week every time he stands up i flinch. and you know that i have an anger problem. and i need to work on that. and i have a tendency to yell and over react. but that fear i felt that night i never ever! Ever! want my wife to feel like that. because it literally tore our relation ship apart. we barley speak any more. we dont daily plan and we dont do comp study. and i dont want that to happen ever again. if i would react just one time with that around any one it would instantly kill our friendship. if thats the only thing i take away from this companion ship it will be enough.

so every thing back home sounds good. i really wish you guys could come and visit. or at least i could talk to you every once in a while. that sucks there is another oil spill. our endearment is going to pot. you can see it in the world all around us. i cant wait for the savior to come and set things strait. i never realized how sheltered i really was in Utah. We have our own little bubble. and there is a do not cross sign on it. but here in the OKC every thing is coming at you full force. like we went to a fair on Saturday because some of our investigators invited us. and that place was just so terrible. i could feel satan breathing down my neck. we only stayed for like an hour but it was the longest hour of my life.

Thanks courtney for those questions i just bearly wrote them down on my arm because i dont have paper. i will always try to be asking those questions to myself and for my companions. thanks for praying for me. i could really feel them this week. i love this gospel so much i love how we have the truth in our lives.if nothing else seems to make sence the church does. i am reading and praying constantly. ive never been so emerged in the gospel before. every thing seems to be applying to me and the work im doing. there is people out there searching for this truth that we are bringing door to door. and we just need to seek those people out. not just as missionarys but as Latter Day Saints. people see this terrible world and socity that we live in. and their not happy with it. we need to find those people and introduce them to the gospel of Jesus Christ. this gospel is for every one. but they just dont know it yet. i want to continue to serve with all my heart, migh,t mind and strenght. so that people all around can here the truth that we are willing to share.

 We had a Baptizm on saturday. it was good, short and sweet just like it should be. very spiritual. the dad baptised his boy. which is amazing because he was far off the path wen we fist started teaching him. and on saturday he had the opertunity of a life time to share that speacial day with his son. i hope i can have a baptisum once a trancfer. that is my new goal. start off right and finish it that way baby! too much rock for one hand!

well know that i still love you guys. i wrote a letter that im sending in the mail today. so you should be getting that some time this week. i will wright you another letter as soon as im in my new appartment. so i can give you the address.

LO, LO, LO, LOVE Elder Payton Clements.